yet it was never completely what i wanted, was never quite what the story-books promised; i never got to live the fairy tale and after a while i sort of gave up on it; (not completely, mind you, but... mostly.) i decided that they had lied to me, Shakespeare, Debbie Gibson, Molly Ringwald (everyone) they had tried to sell me this heavenly "love" that didn't exist; (i had looked all over and not found it, after all, it must not exist!) that is what i decided in my "mature wisdom". (click)