i told my self that this love i had found was all that there was, that it was no use holding out for a fairy-tale love (because that was just in story-books, right?) and so i tried to content myself with what meager trappings of love that i'd found (because it was all that i could ever hope for, right?) but even then i did not really believe; (i still held out hope... i admit it) and so i was never completely sure. (click)