This chapter feels more personal than most. I don't usually like admitting how I feel; usually I just write about how I felt. It's much easier to talk about how I felt about in the past, because it's over and I've had time to explain it to myself in the best possible light. In talking about how I feel, I open myself up to later deciding that I was wrong, that I was self-delusional, and the embarrasment that comes from that. It's much easier to say "I was self-delusional then" and just write it off when there is not concrete evidence of my self-delusion within LG for the reader to look back upon. Does that make any sense? It doesn't really matter, I guess. The point is this: I am writing about how I feel because I know that I am right about this. I'm not holding anything back... for once. There are no images in this chapter; I wanted to let the words stand on their own. (click)