When I write about my life I find these common threads running through
it, these common themes, and I can give every event a sense of completion.
My life is as unified and complete as I perceive it to be, as much as I can
fool myself into perceiving it to be.
Any substance can be abused, you can become addicted to anything in that
you can become dependant on it, whether physically or emotionally or both.
The problem with dependancy on non-addictive (physically, at least)
substances comes when you make use of one to escape your problems. That's
why I won't take off-the-shelf pain killers. =)
If I was stupid and normal then I'd be happy, because I wouldn't know any
better. And as much as I know that it's true, I just can't live with the
idea because I'm not stupid and I do know
better so there's no point to wishing I had been stupid and happy. I like
being me.
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