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Well it finally happened, i finally went and did it. As i said way back
in Chapter 39, "i fully expect to any
day now."
i've given up on falling in love.
There i go, putting it up there in big bold centered letters, as if it
was something monumental or important. It's been 9 weeks since i wrote the
words "i haven't given up on falling in love; i fully expect to any day now."
At the time i thought i meant that i fully expected to fall in love "any day
now", and i said as much in the 'bonus message' that those who filled out the
critique of the chapter received, but i think i knew even then that i was
nearing a period of hopeless melancholy in which i would give up on falling
in love.
It might be easier to fall in love if i could find someone with romantic
inclinations towards me to whom i was attracted, but Fate seems to have
conspired against me to keep this from ever happening.
As i said 9 weeks ago, "i wouldn't enjoy this unrequited love if i had no
hope." Well, the unrequited love soured and i have no more hope left to
sacrifice on the altar of love.
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